So lately, my prayer life has looked more of like a wrestling match with God. The Lord has been very clearly ripping weeds out of my heart that have overgrown me. To make a long story short, last night, as I was wrestling with God, I ended up with tears streaming down my cheeks. It was at this point two am, and I have been in bed for hours just bawling my eyes out, frustrated & almost ripping out my hair. As I rolled around, seething through my teeth I asked God, "What do You want from me?!"
His response was sobering to me : "Everything."
I couldn't believe that I had forgotten that Gospel so much : that God is God, and serving Him is Him having the reign in our hearts. God is jealous for our love and affection, and is such a lover that He wants every bit of us. It's a simple reminder, but my friends remember : God doesn't want our things or what we can do for Him. He wants everything. Every bit of our heart and affection. He is the ne that holds our heart, that created our heart, and can fulfill our every desire. Trust in Him who created us for His purposes, and that purpose is to love Him fully.
